Monday, June 17, 2013

2/3 of One Year

When I last left you, Silas had begun to crawl. Within one week of learning to crawl, he started pulling up on anything and everything and cruising around the room! He is the most ACTIVE little boy I've ever seen :).

 Jamming is better while standing.

Attempting deadlifts.....

Most of this past month we've just played, crawled after, and cleaned the house over and over and over again! Some of our favorite activities have been:

The Playground

Building and Destroying Forts

Making Toys from Household Objects

Yes...we stuffed Silas into an oatmeal canister. He loved it!

Making New Friends

 Brandy and her little ones, Luke and Parker Grace came to see us!

 Despite that face, Silas loved their visit.

 Parallel Play :)

This is Skyla. We met her at the Greene Street Market and it was love at first sight for both of them.

Even though we've had a lot of fun this past month, I've been dealing with a lot of worry/guilt/feelings of inadequacy. Silas has always been little and I was very thankful for that during the birth process, but he's staying little. At his 6 month appointment, he was below the 5th percentile for weight (I think he weighed right around 13lbs). Our doctor said he was fine, but wanted him to move up the charts by his 9 month visit. So, I have continued nursing him (attempting to do it for at least one year) and have fed him lots of homemade baby food. At his 9 month checkup last week, he had moved up to the 5th-6th percentile, weighing in at 16lbs 13oz and measuring 27 1/2 inches long (25th percentile for height). Our doctor was pleased and said he thinks Silas is just going to be a short, skinny kid. 

I've worried myself sick about his stats, comparing him to other babies both the same age and younger, wondering if I'm doing something wrong. If he wakes up at night, I still nurse him back to sleep because I read that night feedings are some of the most nutrient dense feedings of the day. I've been trying to eat more and drink more hoping that will increase and fatten up my supply. What I haven't done is really take into account how incredibly active and strong Silas has become....and I haven't been trusting God to take care of our little boy. When we pray for him at night, my most consistent prayer is that God will make Silas healthy and strong and that he would be used mightily for His kingdom. I believe God is answering that prayer, just not in the way I envisioned. I never thought that Silas' first works in impacting the kingdom might be to humble and sanctify his parents. Just like marriage, parenthood adds a magnifier to that mirror where you can see your sin in ways you never would have imagined. I have seen my selfishness, tendency to worry, tendency to compare and covet, and my self reliance in more clarity since having Silas. The Lord uses Silas to point me back to the Cross daily.....sometimes hourly. I suppose I always envisioned having a big, chunky, baby that would take after his Dad in the looks and size department. Instead, I've been given a mirror in a tiny, bundle of energy....and I wouldn't trade him for the world.

Mommy is so thankful for you, my sweet, tiny, boy!


  1. I think your handsome son will have a lot of tall girlfriends. . .

  2. Dear Lisa,

    Thanks for being honest.

    Love your heart,



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